the madness of the madkid

ahhhhhh!!!!

2005-08-22T18:42:00.000+08:00

its project time now...got c prog n internet app...sux big time...juz startrd on it n xam is in abt 2-3 wks time n proj needs to be handed up nxt wk...can things be worse??!?!arghhh...of course... it cud be...but its not...i mean...im stress...yeah...but if i put my mind, heart n soul into it...i guess it wud be all gd....probably get dwn to it in a few days...arghhh...i need help in D.E....big time...dammit...haha...probably try to learn it someday soon...erm...better be soon...anyway...gotta do my html now...gotta get started or i may never start....

im not okay(i promise!!)

2005-08-06T18:21:00.000+08:00

"Well if u wanted honesty
that's all u had to say to me
i never want to let u down or have u go
its better of this way
For all the dirty looks
the photographs ur boyfriend took
remeber wen u broke ur foot from jumping off the second floor?

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
U wear me out

What will it take to show u that its is not the life it seems?
I've told u time and time again, u sing the words
but dunno wat it means
to be a joke and look
another line without a hook
I held u close for the last time as we both shook for the last time
take a good hard look

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
U wear me out

For all the dirty looks
The photographs ur boyfriend took,
U said u read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okay
I'm okay
I'm okay now

But u really need to listen to me
Because im telling u the truth
I mean this I'm okay
Trust Me!

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well im not okay
I'm not O-Fucking-kay
Well I'm not okay"

- My Chemical Romance-

i like this song...i've said it b4...its a nice song...for all the angsty teenagers...haha...relates to how we feel wen we r not OK!!! i noe...im soo tired rite now...i've not gone out for days...i dunno why i chose to stay home...im not sure...i cud have gone out these few days instead i chose to stay home...why?! its so not normal...dammit...i miss the sun...n rite now my brain is all messed up... haha...im such a confused teenager!!" u gotta help me out!"...who is the "u"? i dunno...everyone n anyone who cares....hahaha...like i care...i dunno why...but i suddenly feel like my personality is changing....hahah...i dunno why...maybe its a stupid mood swing.....since wen did i not care?! i always care...well actually dun care abt my life...i care abt everything but my life? why?...cuz stuff is always too complicated to xplain...why? cuz i complicate things...why? i dunno...life is juz like dat...well..i made it like dat...its part of me to make things look n seem difficult...wen actually its juz sooo easy...wats up with me?!

2005-08-05T20:27:00.000+08:00

i suddenly feel so lost!!! i dunno why...actually im always lost...n have always been lost...but today i feel so upset...i juz cant get a grip!!! i feel like crying the whole time...i suddenly feel so alone...like the whole world doesnt exsist n i hv lost all my frens!!!i dunno why...geez...help...i mean...wat do i do...i wanna break down n cry but i cant...i juz wanna punch sumthing...i feel like juz venting all my anger....but i dunno why im so angry...why?!? why am i always so lost?! dammit...gosh... how do i find my way?!
dammit...wat is up with me?!dammit....

finally...its over...n now...more?!!?

2005-08-04T15:27:00.000+08:00

my tests r over...well...i mite flunk my maths...i dunno...it was really tough...i had no idea how to do most of the questions....hahah...even c programming wasnt so bad...haha...i now have to do 3 projects....data comm, c prog, internet application(its on golf...sumthing i noe nthg abt)....hahah...im busy again...wel...im suppose to be....im trying to concentrate on it.....i've been having horrible mood swings lately....dunno why...haha...sometimes the simplest things piss me of....hmm...pple beware...ahhh....

".......u said u read me like a book
but the pages are all torn and frayed

i'm okay
i'm okay
i'm okay now
(i'm okay now)

but u really need to listen to me
because im telling u the truth
i mean this im okay!
(TRUST ME)

im not okay
im not okay
well, im not okay
im not o-fucking-kay
im not okay "

ahhh...song dats running in my head....kinda like im wat im feeling...im not sure if im okay...i mean ...i mite be ok on the surface....but inside im not sure.....kinda reminds me of another song....haha....more songs n more songs r becoming part of my blog....im not sure why....haha.... i think songs help me xpress how i feel better...i think so anyway...

"i tear my heart open, i sew myself shut
my weakness is dat i care too much
my scars remind me that the past is real
i tear my heart open juz to feel
........................"

nice song....i think dats why we have scars...to have memories of our past....pretty good thing.... at the same time a pretty bad thing...i mean...if u wanna forget sumthing abt ur past u may never be able to cuz u r scared for life....cool huh...

All these things i've done!!

2005-07-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

When there's no where else to run
Is there room for one more son?
One more son
If u can hold on
If u can hold on, hold on

I wanna stand up
I wanna let go
U noe, u noe - no u dun, u dun
I wanna shine in the hearts of men
I want a meaning from the back of my broken hand

Another head aches, another heart breaks
I m so much older than I can take
And my affection, well it comes and goes
I need direction to perfection, no no no no

Help me out
Yeah, U noe u gotta help me out
Yeah, oh dun u put me on the blackburner
U noe u gotta help me out

And wen there's no where else to run
Is there room for one more son
These changes aint changing me
The cold hearted boy I used to be

Yeah, U gotta help me out
Yeah, oh dun u put me on the blackburner
U noe u gotta help me out
U're gonna bring urself down
Yeah, u're gonna bring urself down
Yeah, u're gonna bring urself down

I got soul but Im not a soldier
I got soul but Im not a soldier
.......

Yeah, U gotta help me out
Yeah, oh dun u put me on the blackburner
U noe u gotta help me out
U're gonna bring urself down
U're gonna bring urself down
Yeah, oh dun u put me on the blackburner
Yeah, u're gonna bring urself down

Over and in, last call for sin
While everyone's lost, the battle is won
With all these things I've done
All these things I've done
If u can hold on
If u can hold on

This is hell of a song...all these things i've done....wat r the things that i've done??!??
hmmm...i've done alot of things...and yes...i need help...with wat...i dunno...sorting out my own life...haha...wellz...i cant ask pple to sort out my life for me...haha...i got to sort out my own life...haha....anyway...alot of things i've done...IM on HOLS...well study break actuall...N i hvnt started studyin...sad!!!haha...went to my granny's hse today...its sad dat i dint hv a chance to eat her good food...sighz...but i think i mite go over some time this wk n eat...juz to eat her yummy food...haha...i thot my mom was ccoking in the end my mom ...neva cook...made me eat maggie mee instead!!! ***SOBZ!!***

WaTcH the music video for this song....Im advising IT!!! lol...its really nice...haha...its funny...N Brandon Flowers is sooo HOTTTTT!!! i mean...he looks real good...juz like in Mr. Brightside...

2 wks...well...less den dat....1 wk n 2days!!!

2005-07-22T20:38:00.000+08:00

arghhh....my test r in 1 wks time....im so scared i will fail!!!!Maths and C prog! ahh...maths...maths...maths...im so sick of it...lol...really...i realise dat everywhere there's maths...its horrible!!!pple...get this song...im recommending it...im too lazy to write the lyrics today...so i will soon someday...its SILVER AND COLD BY AFI!!!! its rocking my world...anyway... thnx to joanne this song is running in my head everyday....but the song is really beautiful...ahh... go listen to it...

"....your sins into me, oh my beautiful one...."

anyway...skl is ok...im not gonna complain...n fencing is getting more fun...oh...n my throat has been getting real sore for the past few days...im not sure why...hope i dun fall sick...anyway...i realize dat im fitting in better with my new frenz...well maybe with juz my tiny click...i mean...im happier now den wen i started skl...i used to feel so left out...but im better now...hmm...i guess well...my prayers r kinda answered...i mean i prayed to fit in better with my frenz and i now do...hehe...wellz....i guess...it takes time...oh,,,n never give up in ur faith...God will never let u down...i think...its more likely u will let him down den he let u down...

2005-07-19T19:53:00.000+08:00

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that im sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But i wun lose sleep on that,
'Cause i've got a plan.

U're beautiful, U're beautiful.
U're beautiful, it's true.
I saw ur face in crowded place,
N i dunno wat to do,
'Cause i'll never be with u.

Yeah, she caught my eye
As she walked on by.
She cud see from my face that i was,
Fucking high.
N i dun think that i'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

U're beautiful, U're beautiful.
U're beautiful, it's true.
I saw ur face in a crowded place,
N i dunno wat to do.
'Cause i'll never be with u.
U're beautiful, U're beautiful.
U're beautiful it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thot up that i shud be with u.
But its time to face the truth,
I will never be with u.

Dun worry i am i not in love with girl...its juz sumthing abt this song dat is so special n keeps running in my head. Sadly im not sure why...hmmm...anyway...nxt wk is break! finally...well i cant really say its break cuz the thot of spending everyday preparing for my tests is sad! ahh...im real scared for internet application especially since i hv no clue as to wat is going on in his cls!! Lets juz hope i get thru all my test with good grades!!! Pray for me!!! oh anyway i read my Haary Potter and the half-blood prince! It was real good...its sad dat Dumbledore dies in the end! Stupid SnapE!!! wat a betrayer! but the ending is good...i really like it...now my book is with my bro...n im scared dat it will come back in 10 pieces!!! dammit...he better take good care of it!!! i mean the money i paid for it!!!!

wake me up when september ends

2005-07-12T19:40:00.000+08:00

the summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
7 yrs has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here somes the rain again
falling frm the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what i lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come to passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father's come to pass
20 yrs has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends

i looooooooooooooovvvvveee this song sooo much....its juz so beautiful...its so meaningful...i mean its juz a very beautiful song...geez...it really is beautiful...

anyway rite now i hv got no idea wats going on in my life...geez...there's sumthing weird happening and i cant really say wat it is....i think when i figure out wat exactly it is i will explain it....but well...for now...juz think abt this song...there's juz sumthing abt it...sumthing addictive...sumthing dat makes me think abt it the whole day...something abt it relates to me... sumthing special...n im not sure wat it is..

missing dem!!

2005-07-08T18:31:00.000+08:00

ok...wahaha...this pic was taken recently after the the ij band performance last sat outside borders....it was a really good performance...the only prob was it was sooo hot!! the wheather was bad!!!haha...wellz...still...we had fun...hehe...missing my frenz...sighz...we shud hv lunch or dinner soon...er...maybe not so soon...lol...i gotta save my money...lol...alrighty!!

2005-07-03T16:23:00.000+08:00

my best fren's a butcher,he has 16 knives
he carries them all over the town at least he tries,
oh! look it stopped snowing
my best fren's frm poland, and,um,he has a beard
but they caught him with his case in that public place
that is wat we had feared...
roland-interpol

i went for ij skl band concert yesterday...was pretty cool...they played all the real nice songs...haha...esp...cant take my eyes of u....gosh...that song still rockz!!!hehe...anyway...aft the performance we took photos...dat was so much fun!!!!den i n soph walked ard town...n den kalpz called n met us at kino...n was real annoying as always...haha...made us wait fer sooo long juz to search for 2 darn bookz...haha...but dun worry i still love ya!! anyway haha...i finally returned chandramukhi to sharon...only to find out dat my parents hvnt watch it...haha....gosh...these pple...haiz...dunno wat they r doin...anyway... i have been feeling darn tired lately ...i didnt noe it was so obvious...haha...sleep is wat i need n im obviously not getting...gosh...i wish i cud juz slp...
oh...pls...wake me up wen september ends...haha...

speed of sound...

2005-06-29T16:40:00.000+08:00

COLDPLAY
Speed of Sound....
How long before I get in?
Before it starts, before I begin?
How long before you decide?
Before I know what it feels like?
Where To, where do I go?
If you never try, then you'll never know.
How long do I have to climb, Up on the side of this mountain of mine?
Look up, I look up at night, Planets are moving at the speed of light.
Climb up, up in the trees, every chance that you get, is a chance you seize.
How long am I gonna stand, with my head stuck under the sand?
I'll start before I can stop, before I see things the right way up.

All that noise, and all that sound,
All those places I have found.
And birds go flying at the speed of sound, to show you how it all began.
Birds came flying from the underground, if you could see it then you'd understand.

Ideas that you'll never find,
All the inventors could never design.
The buildings that you put up, Japan and China all lit up.
The sign that I couldn't read,
or a light that I couldn't see,
some things you have to believe,
but others are puzzles, puzzling me.

All that noise, and all that sound,
All those places I got found.
And birds go flying at the speed of sound, to show you how it all began.
Birds came flying from the underground, if you could see it then you'd understand,
ah when you see it then you'll understand.

All those signs, I knew what they meant.
Some things you can invent.
Some get made, and some get sent,

Ooh.. Birds go flying at the speed of sound, to show you how it all began.
Birds came flying from the underground, if you could see it then you'd understand,
when you see it then you'll understand.

i wish i cud be understood....if u cant understand this song u will never understand me...really...
i cant understand myself sumtimes...so if u say u understand me den i think...there's sumthing wrong sumwhere...haha...get wat i mean...haha...i hvnt written in ages...i hv been bz...so now im writing cuz im confused n my right eye keeps twitching...im not sure why...

fun,bored,too free...im not sure!!!

2005-06-19T00:05:00.000+08:00

haha...i signed for timothey a contract with singtel....haha...he got a k300i!!!! haha...a better hp den me....sux...haha...anyway...today...i met up with thil who forgot to give me kalpz's tamil notes...n also i went to play swing with my bro, sherv n nick...haha...i dun really like swings...i mean...i dun like to swing to high...i dunno why...not afraid...but i juz dun like it...n den after dat we went to eat at prata hse...haha...n my mom called to check why i wasnt hm yet n if i was going to eat at hm...thot she was going to kill me if i dun...but surprisingly she didnt...haha...n den we went n played cards under 315...dunno why...haha...dam bored....haha...it was quite n ok day i guess...better den some sats...sighz...doing sumthing is better den nthg i guess...but i still hvnt done my hmwk..so i guess im still kinda screwed in a way...shud hv stayed hm n done my hmwk...hehe... but i didnt want to be hm thw whole day too...but i wanted to watch adams family too...haha... i shud hv done my hmwk...haha...i better start on it tmr...haha...this is not a gd thing to keep procrastinating...but i cant help it...haha..i shall do it tmr...i promise!!haha...den agn i dun exactly promise...i shud do it...it juz a layout of 5 webpages...not dat hard..haha....oh an the orang utan msg i sent u guys was real nice rite?! haha...it was funny...was too free..hehe... ;p

today....

2005-06-17T20:05:00.000+08:00

today i went to play pool agn after skl...it was fun...but i feel real tired today for some unknown reason...the whole day...but i dunno why im starting to feel real left out...in a way.. i dunno why...its kinda weird...i juz dunno why...maybe im being paronoid or sumthing...but i juz feel kinda left out at times...sighz...i mean... it juz this real weird feeling...sighz...i wish dat sumtimes i had real nice life...n pple r always nice to u n dun bitch bhind ur back...i mean if u hv a prob with me juz tell me...i like it dat way.......i dunno...why cant they juz be real normal towards me....but i noe its real impossible...n its neva gonna happen...sumtimes i find dat pple juz judge u without knowing anything abt u...its real annoying....i cant stand it...i had fun today...but i was juz thinkg abt sumthing....dat i wish i cud tell everyone...but i cant...n life will neva be full of nice, sweet ppl...n i noe it...

2005-06-16T21:24:00.000+08:00

'the dawn is breaking
a light is shining through
u're barely walking
and im tangled up in u
yeah!

im open u're closed
where i follow u'll go
i worry i wun see ur face
light up again

even the best fall down sometimes
even the wrong words seem to rhyme
out of the doubt that fills my mind
i sumhow find
u and i collide

im quiet u noe
u make a first impression
i've found im scared to noe im always on ur mind

even the best fall down sometimes
even wen the stars refuse to shine
out of the back u fall in time
i somehow find
u and i collide

even the best fall down sometimes
even the wrong words seem to rhyme
out of the doubt that fills my mind
i sumhow find
u and i collide

u finally find
u and i collide
u finally find
u and i collide'

this song has been running in my head for days!! n it still is...n it totally rocks!!! shit man...its so pop!! but its really good for sum unknown reason...i really love it!!sighz!! oh n skl is really much better now...haha...but im bloody tired cuz today i went bowling n i aso played pool...haha..2 games of bowling n one game of pool...me n my frens bat n jaz....it was fun...hehe!!!oh n dere are kinda cute white guys in my cca...they only came for awhile...french club rox!! haha...really...oh n there's fencing!!!pple fencing....imagine...for free...hehe...

slpy agn

2005-06-14T14:34:00.000+08:00

dunno why but lately my patience has been dying....literally dying...i hvnt been patient with anyone at home...esp my parents!!!dunno why...like i said b4 i'd rather be out than at home with them!!!they r really hard to reason with....dammit...they hv started again!!! im rather pissed rite now...but skl is much better now...but i was real slpy today...had no idea wat was going on...i dunno why but today everybody seemed real slpy....i think someone put a spell or sumthing...hehe!!! wellz...i will write later if i hv the time...or some other time...

ARGHHH...skl has started!!!!

2005-06-08T19:01:00.000+08:00

ahhh....skl has started....lessons r super tough...i hv got no clue wats goin on in half of my lect....hahaha...im not kdg...oh well...so far i hv gone to play pool....the first time ever...haha....i cant shoot for nuts...i need tonz of practise....haha...wellz....pple in me cls r nice...but sometimes they keep speaking in chinese so i got no clue wat they r toking abt...oh....n everyone in my cls thinks im real quiet!!!haha....see i've been telling u guys ( diana,fiona,ina,kalpz...etc.)all of ya'll...keep saying i tok alot...but haha...i think part of the reason is cuz i dunno wat they r toking abt...man....life....so anywayz...im gonna start being a real goody gal...muz keep pple thinking im innocent!!! haha...i forgot wat i wanted to write...oh well...haha...frenz take care yeah...

hmmmz...z...z...z...z...

2005-05-29T19:17:00.000+08:00

im writtimg this 1/2 aslp.....hvnt written for along time cuz my comp was getting repaired....yeah...n i hv been bz with making new frenz at nyp...haha...yeah rite...i mite be being paranoid...but maybe some pple there may not like me or sumthing...as u noe i dun really fit in easily cuz of my weirdness....but not many pple actually noe dat im really psycho...haha...they all think im normal....really...haha....they hvnt seen my weird...psycho...side yet...i dun think i will show it to anyone there come to think of it....in case they get creeped out or sumthing...hehe...but yeah...i guess not everyone will like u in a skl....i dunno if anyone hates me yet....but then there is always someone who will not like u rite??? haha...n besides noone will hv to worry abt me being competitive with me....cuz i noe shit abt computers n stuff...haha...really dunno how im gonna do well in this course...i noe how to only turn on off a comp....n of course chat...im so screwed...haha...n i hvnt slept in 4 days now....really hvnt been slpg properly...n i got skl tmr....so tired!!!thats why im 1/2 aslp rite now....but i really cant slp...i dunno why...shit man!!!im gotta wake up at 640 am tmr....im so gonna slp during my lectures or sumthing...ahhh....DIE!!! first day inskl n im aslp....SHEEESH!! wats wrong with me...

Fever!!!!

2005-05-20T15:38:00.000+08:00

i've been hvin for the past 2 1/2 days!! its crazy....haha...the worst part of hvin fever is dat i always develop itchy swellings...this time my forehead swelled up n so did my left ear...i looked like a deformed mickey mouse...trust me it was dat bad....n also i had one mega huge swelling on both my legs!!!on the shin....n i wasnt able to go for my poly orientation....dammit....i missed my first maths lecture n test...wat a start to a new skl yr...amazing huh?!? eventhough my my swellings hv gone down its still itchy!!!!

the da vinci code

2005-05-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

this is driving my family mad......they are all arguing abt if this is true or is dat true...i really dun give a dam...unless they can come up with real evidence den i may believe anything they say.... everything they have said on tv and everything my fam is arguing abt is all plausible theories....sheesh...i wish pple will be more realistic....and stop arguing abt things that do not 100% prove....

home

2005-05-10T16:27:00.000+08:00

i dunno why...i used to like...well not really like...i did not mind staying home....but recently i kinda hate staying home....its not juz boring....its juz YUCK!!!! i feel like screaming and juz getting away frm here....haha....oh...now pls excuse me will i go wash the dishes which is all piled up in the sink....i feel like a damn maid!!!

the speed of sound

2005-05-09T19:46:00.000+08:00

pinball is it really a guys game??i mean my bro said dat pinball is a guy's game...i think its bull!!!!
i love pinball....its juz fun.....who comes up with these rule....i think its kinda sexist izznt it to say dat this is a guys game and dat is a girls game....pinball is suppose to be unisex....besides i beat my brother's score....so i think this proves dat watever guys can do.....girls can do better!!!!!! adn pinball aint a guys game....hahahaha.....im bored....pinball is fun and speed of sound by coldplay rocks!!!!the song is beautiful....i cant even describe it....its juz real good!!! pple start downloading now!!!!haha....

oh GOD!!!

2005-05-08T17:54:00.000+08:00

there is sumthing wrong with this computer...cant stand it....keeps restarting itself or turns off...anyway...haha...i wonder at wat age do parents consider their children grown up...or are they juz sexiest?!?i mean my mom always says i cant go out late cuz im a girl....and its really annoying cuz my younger bro can go out as late even later occasionally cuz he is a guy...i mean he is two damn years younger!!! how can parents b so biased....and...i cant go out with my brother till late...im with my brother for god's sake....parents are unreasonable and biased...and thier excuse is dat u r not old enuff...but wen it comes to going to work...and working till late den u r old enuff....

i hate....

2005-05-03T09:44:00.000+08:00

i feel really down.....i reached my lowest yesterday night....i dunno why...i suddenly cried....i cudnt stop....i guess part of me feels very invisible in this world....i dunno why...guess not many pple...so i sortof wrote down stuff i hate....
i hate :
judgemental relatives
unrealistic pple
frens who call wen they need u
frens who dun remember my bdae
pple who listen but never hear
back-stabbing
liers
fake frens
bitching
name calling (making fun of others)
being fat
being alone
frens who tell my bro's abt me

not sure how many frens will read this but i do hope dat u dun take it personally....im not saying any of ya'll are like this...but im feeling real down...i bet by 2mr i'll be all happy and normal agn...not that im normal in any way....haha....my gosh i feel real good now....damn mood swings!!

broken dreams

2005-04-28T21:35:00.000+08:00

i walk a lonely road
the only one that i've ever known
dunno where it goes
but its only me and i walk alone

i walk this empty street
on the boulevard of broken dreams
where the city sleeps
and im the only one and i walk alone

yeah life is pretty lonely...esp wen u r bored...u get wat i mean rite....haha...im kinda real bored...oh.....yeah broken dreams....i guess alot of pple have their dreams broken....i mean u imagine this and u wanna achieve that but then only to have all ur dreams shattered its real crappy....it happens alot...i mean many times i felt that my dreams have been to shattered only to build new one....and have them shattered too...but i think the only way to achieve dreams is only to have them in the first place and then find away to achieve them later...but i dun really think that my dreams r gonna be achieved...welll i dun think all anyway....dats why i have new dreams and i hope....no i plan to achieve them at least get close to achieving them this time...haha...

my brother's b'dae

2005-04-27T09:59:00.000+08:00

im not getting dat him any presents.....aaron...he turns 19 today....i never get any presents frm him even though i have bought him stuff b4....and he always ends up asking me wat have u bought me....anyway my mom is baking for him a chocolate etoile cake....yummy!!!!anyway i will be going out with sharmaine not to buy a present but juz to window shop for clothes and have lunch and maybe watch a movie or sumthin....at least i wun die of boredom today...hehe...so no need for a knight in shining armour anymore....haha....and kalpana sux.....really yesterday night u kinda surprised me....u r either real free or sumthing....evil kid!!!! playing tricks on poor innocent souls like me!!! gosh...i havent seen dat guy for sooo long....3 days!!!

BOREDOM!!!

2005-04-25T13:22:00.000+08:00

SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!!!!this boredom is killing...i mean it...if there was something more entertaining....right now i can do with the knight in shining armour to come and save me from this boredom....wonder who he is....cuz he is cuz he muz really suck at his job....or he juz doesnt exsist... haha...i dun think so anyway....he is suppose to be a fairy tale anyway....anyway today is not a good day....i woke up in morning with a stiff neck, got real bad cramps and the weather is freaking hot......can this day get any worse??i think wen my bro leaves....im gonna lock myself in the room...turn on the air-con, get a book, and listen to music and hopefully fall asleep and dream of snow!!!!

my brothers

2005-04-25T05:46:00.000+08:00

i have 3 retarded brother....they are real childish...my brothers act below their age and are major bullies...i mean i get beaten up and stuff...and i have bruises to show their abuse...really....hahah...but they make my life interesting...they can be major pain in the asses but they can also really sweet esp after they make me cry which is pretty weird...suddenly they all love me!!!haha...they wanna buy me chocolates and ice - cream aft they beat me up? they cud juz save their money if they didnt bully me in the first place right? guys r weird pple....my bro's are living proof....u stay at homewith 3 guys everyday u tend to learn alot frm them and they also have major influences on ur thots and actions...in away they teach u alot....kinda fun...i gotta say their abuse is worth tolerating....and they are always there to make u smile wen u r down....wait a minute why am i writing nice stuff abt them?? they beat me up everyday...oh hell im too tired to re - type and change it to the evil stuff they do...heck...they r plain evil...never have brothers....im totally traumatised....and im scared for life....anybody wanna xchange siblings???

wow!!!

2005-04-24T14:34:00.000+08:00

haha...never thot i wud ever ever blog...this is weird...but i kinda always wanted to write wat i thot....hehe...i shall not write much now...my parents are watching tamil movie now...its weird man....i wonder who is the genious who comes up with the name of these movies...i mean wat kinda name is run??really...even my granma can come up with better names...sighs....wat to do...anyway...hmmz....nthg else....nvm...